You know.. After spending like about three weeks in Trinity and getting to know people here and there, in this class/ tutorials etc etc., I found out that I can 'click' more with the Singaporeans and Malaysians bunch than the Indonesians bunch. This sounds weird considering that myself is Indonesian=.=

But it's true. They are more easy-going and also friendlier. Indons are more.. I dunno.. Sungkan dan jaga image? Etc etc. And besides, I feel more comfortable with them. Like I can be myself. I kinda hold back in front of the Indonesians, like the way I do in front of stangers or people I've just got to know, which is again very funny. Shouldn't it be the other way round??

It doesn't only apply here you know. I still do hold back a part of myself in front of my Indo friends in Indo. They don't know me like totally. In fact in front of them I'm rather quiet. A statement which my Singaporeans friends would probably disagree completely with. Rika? Quiet? Bullshit. You know how noisy I can be.

The thing is.. I can never be myself in front of them. It's like everytime I have this feeling I have to hide some parts of myself be it this one this time or that one the next time. There is like ALWAYS a part of me I have to hide. Sometimes I even feel like I have to pretend into someone I am not.

I dunno lah. I dunno if you get me. I'm just penning down my thoughts. Just ignore this post hahahah. For now I gotta sleep. Catching a cold:(